Ebenezer,  facing grief,  Faith

Searching for words…

Dear One, I didn't even know you were there. I don't know if you are there still. The doctors aren't sure. We are waiting and watching. I don't know if I have lost you already or if you are just starting to grow. I am scared, dearest one. I bled internally, and something is wrong with my right ovary. But my blood says you are within me, even though they cannot see you. They want to watch, to see if my HcG levels double, meaning you are still with us. They wanted to do surgery to evaluate the bleeding, to make sure if mommy was okay. But they wanted to wait. To give you a chance to grow… you and I are resting in God's Almighty Healing hand, dear one. I love you.


Please pray for my health, for the unknown baby's health, for
healing within the ovary, and that no more bleeding into the abdominal
space occurs. That the doctors will be given wisdom in my care, for the
emotional upheaval happening within my heart, for my husband and

We wait in hope for the LORD;

he is our help and our shield.

In him our hearts rejoice,

for we trust in his holy name.

May your unfailing love rest upon us,

O LORD, even as we put our hope in you.

Psalm 33:20-22 NIV

{Picture from November 2005, pregnant with Lorelei}


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