Beauty in the mundane…

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Confession time: This card was a reject. I did it a few weeks ago and I didn't like it at the time. I guess it was one of those things where what I was seeing in my head was not coming out on the paper. I didn't like how the second flower came out, too faded… I tossed it. In the trash.

But.

James snapped it up. He was using it as a bookmark in his Bible. When I noticed it one morning, I asked him about it- "Didn't I throw that out?" He looked at me with a smile and said, "Yeah, but it was too beautiful to toss out. You may not see it, but I love it." (Did I mention how much I love this guy?)

*sighs*

Perfectionism gets the best of me way too often.

The thing is…I like it a lot now too. I see the beauty of it. Yeah, so the flowers are a bit unfinished and they don't have the definition I wanted. But they are almost dreamy…one seems like it is the reflection of the first one. I started scribbling words across it as I looked at it again. I want eyes like James. I want eyes of wonder to see the beauty in the mundane. And the dirty imperfect. So you could almost say it's a visual prayer.

What an adventure this little project has been. I wonder where it will take me next?

Seeing the heart of the matter…

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(Sorry for the harsh lighting…I wanted to get these posted, but didn't remember to take pictures until long after the sun went down.)
    The one on top (also in my banner) was from last week. It was the first time I was playing with a color washing technique with acrylic. I really, really love how it turned out. Even a 'mistake' (I've had mentors remind me there is no such thing in the artistic pursuit) turned out alright- it was a Chinese writing character stamp that I thought would look cool in contrast with the color wash, but it pretty much turned out as an awful black smudge with no contrast whatsoever. But somehow, it totally worked out in the end…gave it this nice aged patina look. And of course, the Heidi Swapp damask stamp. It's pretty pathetic how many things I do end up with this stamp on it somewhere. I don't know where the bird came from- I cut it freehand from some old Nostalgique scraps I had. It just sort of hopped out of the scissors, and it said it needed a crown. And the rub-ons were some very old Melissa Francis buttons. I mean seriously, bottom of the scrap drawer products that I've had forever. And I love it. Maybe I shouldn't constantly try to reinvent the wheel, methinks. Definitely channeling Mrs. Rebecca Sower here, for sure. Who got me into scrapbooking in the first place. Full circle, no? This ATC just speaks to me…it just seems to ecapsulate where I am right this second. The peaceful blue-green. The bird. The jewels. I look at it, and I think, "I can do this." So I found the "it takes courage" line…it's perfect.
    This week, I was still obsessed with the color washing technique. Pam Carriker had an article about it in Somerset Apprentice, and it's really captured my imagination at the moment. I love how it's deeper and milkier, almost velvety, than watercolors, but has a watercolor "look". So this week, I played with three colors instead of just the one. I also used a Heidi Swapp butterfly mask with some Making Memories glitter paint in the middle…a wee flower and button and it was done. The edges are scraps from last week's bird.
    I don't try to analyze what I create with these ATCs. I think it's sort of the hardest part, really, the "not thinking". And the most enjoyable, at the same time. But I can't help but notice that for the last two weeks, I've picked a bird or a butterfly as a motif- I definitely feel it. In my heart. Like it's time to soar, to go. To where and what, I have no idea. But I feel it. Love that it's coming out into these little attempts at creative thought. You know, this is #6. And it's April. I said this project was going to be a weekly thing- I am way behind. Normally, that would drive me nuts, absolutely crazy. I would create just for the sake of getting it done because "I said I would". But you know what? I am totally okay with this being what it is. The whole point was to let go and just play and this is way too much fun to force the issue. It's filling me up during a time in my life when I really don't have any time to really create, to scrapbook, knit, or sew. I love that I am still getting to explore and play and paint, but that it's not so intensive that I feel loss when it is days and weeks before I can get back to the project. Fifteen minutes. I can do fifteen minutes.
    Speaking of which, I am really loving the Somerset Apprentice. It's the premier issue.  The byline is "Artful*Building*Blocks" and it really is. So many of the projects featured have more than one application of technique. Lots of instructions and close-up photos. And the artists! Angela Cartwright, Pam Carriker, Michelle Ward, Claudine Hellmuth. I am self-taught, so this is right up my alley. It's really helping me to spread my wings beyond 'traditional' scrapbooking techniques.

Love is a work in progress…

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Friday came and went on this one. I started it earlier in the week, but then couldn't get back to it until the weekend. In the olden days, I would have grown discouraged and not finished, but I am really committed to trying to complete one of these each week. I am beginning to make space for this little adventure, even if it means that I'll have to stay up later taking care of the laundry or what have you- it's a sacrfice I want to make. I've been working through The Creative Call by Janice Elsheimer, and I am slowly growing used to the idea that these little attempts are a form of worship. (See link in side bar for more info on this book). I think I have often separated "art" from "life" and certainly "art" from the "spiritual journey", a sort of divided kind of thinking that I have talked about before. I think this is a disservice. I think of friends whose talents are varied and numerous: one paints with words, another with pictures, still another by painting, and so often, these are extensions not only of themselves but also a reflection of the Creator that made them. I am beginning to believe that art is not just for "art's sake" but as a way to consider the journey. The ATC this week is clearly influenced by what has been going on in my journey with Christ, but also with others within my community, and when I started this one, I knew exactly where the end result would lie. The background, which is metallic watercolors using a Heidi Swapp damask mask, is directly related to the background of the slides used in worship at church for the last six months. You can see an example here. The verse, which was both hand written and stamped, was from 1 John, which our church has been studying since September. I chose The Message version because I was so caught by "love has the run of the house" phrase…this is truly my prayer, that love would have the run of the house, both within myself and within my home, my life. As I worked on this card as I had a little snippets of time here and there, I was struck by the process. Each layer of the background had to dry before the next layer could be applied- first gold, then the mask with a custom mixed purple, then the ruby over top of it all, the careful lettering. So often I try to rush love, to push things through, to rush sanctification. But it is above all, a process, careful, considerate steps on a narrow way. I don't think I'll be able to look at this card and not think of it…this has to be one of my favorite cards so far.

Products: Lowes Cornell Watercolors (metallic ruby, metallic gold, red, blue), Heidi Swapp Damask mask, Ranger Industries Andrionack Paint Dabber (Lemonade), Elmer's Paint Pen (white), Basic Grey Rubons (bird), Pens: Sharpie (Berry), Creative Memories (Brown), ATC: Strathmore.

Slow and steady wins the race…

Right? Right. *laughter* No ATC card this week, because I have steadily been working through a backlog. Now that I am pursuing more than one avenue of creating, from the ATC's to knitting to writing, trying poetry, photography, I am finding the scrapbooking is happening much faster for me and is much more enjoyable. I think what got me into the standstill/rut was that I was beginning to overthink every page, so each of them would take an hour or more, and I just don't have that kind of time anymore. I've also tried a new theory of prep/organization this time around. I have about 125 pictures from the last year that didn't get scrapped, and I divided them either into child, or event, or both. Like right now, I am steadily working through about 20 pictures of David, his birth, his birthday, etc. They are only 4×6's, no other sizes. I've also limited my paper and embellishment choices. At the outset, I went through my stash and selected about 20 or so sheets of paper in a specific color palette. (For David- it's been light green, light blue, dark blue, and red.) I've also grabbed all the embellishments I think would work with those colors, and then that's it. I just work. About the only thing I gave myself free reign on is the use of stamps. It really has helped! I've done these eight pages in about one hour spurts this week, one on Monday and a bit of time Wednesday. What's more, it was fun! (click for larger)
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Of hazy dreams and wind tossed hair…

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I love, love collage illustrations. There was a recent article in Somerset Studio (I think) that really inspired me. I've seen illustrations like this in books or print (The Incredible Book Eating Boy is a great example), but I've never really thought about the process. The article in Somerset was eye opening, and to whit, the illustrations were printed large enough that you could actually see the different layers. I think this sort of gets lost in translation when pieces like this are converted to screen printing. Anyways, I knew exactly what I wanted to "play" with this week. It's a lot of fun. For the third week in a row, I've wondered to myself why I've waited so long to give myself permission to explore and play with art…

I definitely want to use this technique again…the cutting and paper is surprisingly forgiving. I know to be a bit more careful with matching different patterns, and to use a glue that is not permanent immediately- a glue that allows a bit of re-sticking before becoming permanent would work much, much better. All the paper pieces came from my scraps from bigger scrap booking projects. I think I will use an x-acto knife next time- the regular scissors didn't allow for a lot of precision. But I am immensely pleased with it- James, watching me at first, was absolutely puzzled as to what I was trying to make. He was so surprised at the end result. I've noticed that no matter how hard I try, I keep leaning towards soft, pastel sort of colors. I've always wondered what my "style" was (at least when it came to scrap booking) and now it is becoming much more apparent with these ATC explorations. I really try not to "think" as I am working, just going with shapes and colors and lines that move me. I evaluate after I am finished…and does this sound strange? I am often surprised at the finished product, because I didn't have a particular goal in mind when I started. But I definitely have a soft, vintage-y/modern thing going on…

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