The blood tests came back yesterday afternoon…the hormone levels increased only by a half instead of doubling. The uncertainty is clawing at the corners of my heart. The grief…it seeks to overwhelm. I am leaving for the doctor's appointment that will answer so many questions. I don't know what these next hours hold. But I do know that my dear Abba is Faithful, and that He is holding me close in this tempest. This is, this is, my  God's Plan A for my life. I will cling to Him. He will carry me through.
In my darkest hours, I have found myself praying, crying, and creating. Visual prayers, visual promises. This is my offering, my tithe. The paper, so thin, so fragile, the paint running where I would will it not…how it echoed my heart in these moments.

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5 thoughts on “Waiting…

  • August 19, 2008 at 6:35 pm

    Oh Joy… Praying for you… may you know His everlasting arms underneath. Deut.33:27 {{{Hugs}}}

  • August 19, 2008 at 7:14 pm

    Praying constantly here, friend… keep your face turned heavenward…

  • August 20, 2008 at 3:18 pm

    Dearest Joy, I’m amazed at the beauty you are able to pour out even as you battle such a formidable opponent as grief and uncertainty. Stilling praying… that you’d feel the angels standing guard over you and your Heavenly Father’s own arms around you…


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